I was in Ex 20 this morning. Besides the fact that I have broken every one of the 10 in so many ways except the obvious ones people think of.
I often put myself as a god before God. I have used His name in vain. Even when I remember the sabbath (most weeks in worship) my whole day is not spent in sabbath rest. I have murdered in my heart, Stole, even if time from my employer daydreaming. I have coveted. I have not always honored my parents.
The point is humbling. Sure, we say, I h’ain’t killed no body. I ain’t never cheated on my wife. I ain’t never made a false image. Yup. I gots ’em all covered, ‘ecpt-in maybe that parents thing, but boys is wild. Everbuddy knows this.
It was good to be reminded. Not much later while driving I had a thought about someone and I immediately started exhausting myself, and was just on the verge of creating a fantasy about how I could do this or do that and show the other up. It felt like God snatched the hair off my head getting in there to root it out. The whole process from think to repent was less than a second, and then I told God: Go head, snatch it out. I’m sick of it everytime I think about doing something good. I was yelling and realized it. I apologized to God for raising my voice to Him but explained it was me I was mad at. So the 10 are good to read often. I think Luther tried everyday. Yes, the rediscover of grace through faith studied the Law, hard.
The main thing that stuck me, though, was this:
“An altar of earth you shall make for me and sacrifice on it your burnt offerings and your peace offerings, your sheep and your oxen. In every place where I cause my name to be remembered I will come to you and bless you. 25 If you make me an altar of stone, you shall not build it of hewn stones, for if you wield your tool on it you profane it.”
Just before this I had read Psalm 24:
The earth is the Lord’s and the fullness thereof [sometimes translated and all that fills it)
the world and those who dwell therein,
Here’s the key to Hubris, and we see it everyday. God made the stones; they are part of the fullness of the earth which belongs to Him. They would change His creation by hewing them. He forbid this. “They’re MY rocks. Why would I want your pathetic hands trying to shape them? They’re perfect the way I made them.”
But how often do we apply ourselves to a task thinking we are the creators, the builders, the movers and shakers, the ones the world need in order to “Get ‘er done!”?
Shear Hubris! Even when we are doing good it is often according to our plan.
We are stone stackers of the alter of God. The only thing He wants is our obedience. Not our leadership. Not our creative designs. Not our tools. Not our organizational charts and flowchart plans. He wants us to pick up the rocks he created and place them where He wants them to go.